Friday, September 4, 2009

Ishq kijiye phir samajhiye, zindagi kya cheez hai...







I'm so excited and enthu about spending my whole life with you..
I want to go to sleep in your safe, secure loving arms free from any troubles of the world.
And when you are feeling low, I want to be your partner in crime in murdering the cause of your sadness, and then you fall asleep, safe and secure in my loving hug for you. :)
I'll always be there for you for anything anytime. I'll be your strength, your pillar of support, I'll encourage you in everything you ever wanted to do. We'll live life together, we'll face life together, we'll love life together. You'll love every moment with me all our life, rest assured :) I'll help you discover yourself and irrespective of you successes or the stepping stones to success, I'll ever ready with a comforting hug and a kiss that means, 'I'm proud of you baby'
I know you love me as much as I do with my heart, mind, body and soul..
My dear dear husband, how can I ever thank you for loving me and treating me like a darling Princess.. I feel so special.. Thank you.. !

Its amazing..
How you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me whenever I fall...

Tum ho toh gaata hai dil..
Tum nahi tho geet kahaan..
Tum ho toh hai sab haasil..
Tum nahi tho rasta kahaan..
Jo tum ho tho yeh lagta hai ki mil gayi har khushi..
Jo tum na ho tho lagta hai ki har khushi mein hai kami..
Tumko hai maangti, yeh zindagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..........

I see you. My love.


As I look
Beyond the ripples of my reflections
To examine my inner self
The ripples begin to fade...
As the reflection lays beside me
Grasping my hand,
The inner warmth shields me
And when the vision of my reflection appears
I see you. My love.

My love. My pride.


If everytime I was proud of you, a flower bloomed a new
Mother Earth would look beautifuller than all the Miss Universes put together
What with the most colourful and beautiful flowers adorning her all over
Reminding of my love for you and my pride that you are.. :)
I'm too scared to let you go
I never want to lose you
If you weren't there with me
I'd not know what love was, how it felt and why its so special for me....

With love, For Lettie Kutti, Prani dhunna and Prashu baby :)

You are amazing. Its very interesting to see how you can adapt to so many different situations so very conveniently.. from being the most innocent baby in the group to instantly becoming a parent to reprimand the naughty kid in the group.

I wanted to tell you, do not waste your life for anybody or anything in the world. Coz if they need you in their life, they've got to accept you in your entirety and those who deserve you will not complain and even if they want to, I'll make sure they do not have an option of complaining :P
So have faith in yourself and keep yourself also happy.

You are made for good things.. hmm.. already know it?? Ok, let me tell you then, you've already started doing them. Let no phase in your life obstruct you or make u fall in a dilemma when you want to do things for yourself, your happiness, your satisfaction. Do not neglect yourself, do not live only for others, do not spend your whole lifetime keeping others happy doing things they want you to do and later in your next birth, when you read about yourself in the history books, do not regret that the content of YOUR history was 'YOUR LIFE' but you never led it your way.

Dont just lead your life. Live it. Live it to the fullest.



Problems keep knocking the door once in a while, dont keep them locked out, invite them with open arms and seeing that motherly, friendly smile of yours, the problem will be ashamed of itself that its being a problem to you. Be the way you are, work on yourself to become what YOU want, not what others want of you. Dont get bogged down by temporary static situations. Enjoy every up and down in life and treat them equally coz understand that you have to pass throught the downs in life to actually value and appreciate the ups of life when they come.

Without downs there are no ups (school mein geography tho padha hi hoga na?)

Without 'u' there is no 'us' and I think its ok to cry when you feel like, vent your feelings the best you think you can - does hitting somebody help? does going for a long drive help? does having an ice cream help? do whatever you think helps you.. Find the best way to vent your feelings of anger, dissatisfaction, happiness.. It helps you regain your control over yourself :)

If you are a believer, then your God has sent you on to this beautiful earth for some special reason and not just to get rid of life and help reduce India's much-envied population.

If you are an atheist, remember the stork that brought you to where you were born in the hospital? Wait for its return to take you back from whichever zoo it got you, and while you wait, do something worthwhile just for time pass :)

Make life your friend, it cares so much for you, it looks after you so well, it loves you so much... actually, it lets you live it! Now, come on which friend of yours will let you do that tell me? :P
Look up to life as you would look up to anything you want to hang on to during the storms which might leave you a li'l disturbed but a lot more stronger than before.

You are unique. NO ONE CAN EVER REPLACE YOU. don't ask me the why's, there's a long list, we can take it offline ;) Oh and dont take what I wrote light coz u have to just read it once, try to understand, think a li'l and convince yourself a lot more to believe in whatever I wrote above.
Varna itna typing ka mehnat bekaar jaayega yaar!

Love you guys :-*

P.S. I didnt write this coz I'm thinking of quitting this earth, but just coz I felt like writing it for you guys.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

The ankahi kahani of NCC

National Cadet Corps- NCC came into existence in 1931. It was to act as the second line of defence during war but later shifted its focus to develop leadership and officer like qualities in young men and women. It has 3 wings- army, navy and air force. The supreme commander of NCC is the President of India, etc. etc. etc. ... read it many times before? Well, I did it too. That’s why when I wanted to write an article about NCC it had to be new, it had to be different; it had to be ‘the untold.’ So here I let loose bits and pieces of my experiences for you to sit back and enjoy.. The ‘ankahi kahani of NCC.’
I look back at the three years that went by seemingly in such a hurry that I’m still craving for more of it. More of ‘IT’ here of course means the discipline, ragda patti, drill, frog jumps, back rolls, front rolls, elbow walks, rifle runs, weapons drill, parasailing, firing, flying, etc. but along with these, those special moments with friends, those funny incidents, scary accidents, getting caught at the wrong time at the wrong place doing the wrong act and how can I forget mentioning 'the socks stinking away to glory' as a friend puts it! Remember before going ahead that night is the time for all interesting and memorable things to happen.

The ankahi kahani of NCC

We usually sleep hugging each other because of the cold. one day a girl had a very warm body sleeping beside her and as it was chilling cold, she nicely snuggled up to it and slept the whole night happily. It was only in the morning that she realized she had a DOG for a sleeping partner!!

The other sleepless nights were because of our dear seniors ragging us. If you think it happened to you before, think again coz nothing can match this 24 hours company giving to seniors. They wake us up at 2 in the night when we get to go to sleep at 12 after all the preparations for the next day, only to parade in front of their tent, do frog jumps or count the exact number of stars in the sky or to sing and dance inside their tents fro them to aleep. When they were ‘kind’ enough to let us sleep for the night, the next morning would be the time to find out that our faces had in the night, transformed into canvases for our seniors for their talent to be exercised with their painting tools- the shoe polish and the tooth paste. If you are thinking about us complaining to the officials, dismiss the thought coz ‘ye andhar ki baat hai!” and honestly, when we look back, those were our most fun-filled days in life.


We had activities like lots of flying, skeet shooting, trekking, mountaineering, para jumping, and my favourites- firing and parasailing. Sometimes it was time for some great work for the society including activities like taking out rallies for AIDS awareness, assisting police in traffic safety week activities, running for peace in the UN peace walk, door to door administration of pulse polio drops in backward areas( it was an insight into different psychologies of people. Where one didn’t allow us to vaccinate their kids, others were forcing us to vaccinate 15 YEAR OLDS!!), volunteering in the world military games, etc.

A normal parade includes peeche mud, aage bhad, dhayine salute, kadham taal, etc. but we another variety parade called blanket parade wherein the person who dozes off first of all gets it.after dinner, the one who gets to the tent and sleepd by the time everybody else return is the bakra for the day. A blanket is thrown over her and jumping, kicking, hitting, tickling, boxing, all in one for a minimum of five mins happens and then she’s let off. Its so much better at the girls’ end with the boys doing even worser stuff.

Rain rain go away come again another day is our favourite rhyme during the monsoon season camps. As we stay in cloth tents, our groundsheets, bed spread, uniforms, socks, shoes everything gets soaked to the last thread so we dread rains. But as it was our last camp in the final year we thought we could derive fun even in the rains as we wanted to have fun in everything and that was how the ides of rain football was born. There was an imaginary football that we had to kick at each other and the empty dug out pit for pitching up the tents inside the girls’ tent area was to become our stadium. What’s more with the knee deep water below and the natural showers above and the pushing, pulling, throwing girls about that ensued in our ‘stadium.’ The happiest moment came when we were sent home due to the incessant rains and the officers never got to know our antics in the rain as we have a high length clothed boundary around the girls’ area.

Sometimes the food that is served in camps hosted by units other than our 1(A) AIR SQDN unit are so hopelessly tasteless with egg shells in the egg curry, watery dal, stones in the chapathi, and the list goes on of non-edible things in the edible things. It is then that the lady with pudina ras bandi comes to our rescue which we have to buy across the wall. We take too many glasses and glasses of them across the wall and confuse the poor lady and always end up paying either less or much more and never the exact amount.

Talking of food reminds me that our parents brought us home food sometimes and boyfriends, junk food! Not one is spared if he gets food only for his gal, he’s gotta get food for all 12 in the gang or we don’t allow the guy to meet the girl as we don the roles of moral police for our gain. Once in tent, there’s no other phrase to describe us except

‘bhukkad kutthe’ and we are never ashamed of our self conferred title. We can nibble on anything and everything in a matter of minutes just like piranhas. In the evening, we get ready for cultural activities and our favourite hangout is the langar and temple area for dance practice. The temple is a unique thing I’ve ever seen with a snake hill, Hindu god’s statue, a cross and a moon with star all placed side by side symbolizing unity in diversity.

As the Use of mosquito coils is banned in the cloth tents, our only refuge from the mosquitoes is odomos cream. As if the problems of sleeping at 12 , waking up at 3 are not enough, we have cry babies to look after. School children of almost ten different schools known as junior cadets in the NCC lingo cry for their parents and we are pushed to console them, to act like their elder siblings. Though there are many things to crib about, its always fun with those little kiddos around with their genuinely innocent doubts and mischievous acts. With all the above mentioned activities, do you think we’ve got time to bath? We postpone bath for days together until somebody forces us into the bathroom with a bucket and towel in hand. In the morning we are in a hurry to polish shoes, brasso the belt and eagles,etc. and in the evening there’s no time to sleep with the cultural competitions and ragging.

Ah! The hanging grapes- sleep, which I once tried to cope with at the firing range. After I was done with firing, along with a friend took permission to go drimk water but ventured into a shady shed, sat for sometime and I swear we didn’t know we were sleeping till we were woken up by a gruff, male voice shouting at us from outside the protective shed. It was so embarrassing to be found dozing off in an area where you are supposed to be alert at all times- the FIRING RANGE!!



I leave it at this as its getting more and more difficult writing about them.. Experiences that would never come to meet me again in life. I’m gonna miss them so much. Feeling so sad that the days I would be in the uniform I take pride in walking tall, commanding respect and dignity, are all over. With all these and many more memorable incidents, I just want to thank NCC and specially 1(A) AIR squadron, our unit for A very beautiful chapter in life which has ended but has left us with precious moments, treasurable memories and wonderful friends for life!!



Saturday, February 16, 2008

Hey, i joined the bandwagons of bloggers today. let me try and squeeze the creative juices out of me to make the blog real interesting.. tomorrow got an exam. wil meet my friends for the last time. a day to bid farewell to my dear respected uniform. hope all goes well. c ya ppl. gotta study for tomorrow then